Thursday, December 29, 2016

I am a big fan of car accessories.

You name it.
In-car entertainment system.
Brand new steering.
Start button system.
Auto lock brake system.


Truthfully I dont know their proper names, but when I go to the car accesories shop, honestly, I couldn't hold my purse. My money immediately fly away.

Like today, as there are year end sales, there are discounts on the in car entertainment system (GPS and maps include). This is very attractive to me, not because of the entertainment stuff (I am not into watching movies in car as it will invite annoying headache) but the maps thingy are sort of useful to me. I dont really know my way around so the maps and navigation system can come in handy.


And there is a red formula one like steering wheel....on my...if only you know how hard it is for me to say no to it...i cannot bring it home...because honestly i am not into modifying i have to let it go as my steering wheel is still in perfectly good condition.

The other thing that caught my mind apart from the in car entertainment system and steering wheel is.......the start button system.

I first encounter that system in my dad's car. I love it so much that i wanted to modify my car into a push start car. But again, i dont like modifying. The most I can do with my car is change the seat cover entirely with a leather seat one. And thats what I plan to do next time. After I buy myself a great 2tb/4tb hard disk for me to store all my stuffs.

I had a lot of softcopy stuffs.
I had used all my 1tb and 2 500mb external for that.
I am not regretting anything i tell you.

Sunday, December 25, 2016

Assassins Creed: The Movie


I've watched the Assassins Creed last night (25 December 2016)! Finally! After about one and a half year of waiting! (cue Sirius Black's line in HPPOA - "I did my waiting! One-And-A-Half year of Azkaban!) So, yep. I watched it last night, on Christmas Day, at 7.00 pm, with my partner-in-crime (only that we've never attempted any crime whatsoever - but you know this, do you?) at The Spring.

The journey there aren't much, though. We've encountered two office-mates and one low-phone battery situation, which, thankfully, the partner-in-crime solved it with his very own powerbank. We chose the couple seat - not because we liked being secluded, but because the seat (sofa) is so very comfy and - let's face it, all of us loved sitting at the back, watching the movie at the farthest end, not too close to the screen and hurts the eye, and that, as I am quite short, the seats at the back assured me of the part where the head of those in front wouldnt bother my line of sights....

But that's not what I intended to write in this entry, but, as you know me, I would ramble before I get to the real story here. So there's that. End of my rambling.

Assassins Creed.
La Shay'a Waqi'un Mutlaq, Bala Kulum Mumkin.
"Nothing Is True. Everything Is Permitted".

Overall, I would give this movie a 6 out of 10. The graphic is great, the action is great, but the talking part is quite dull.

**Spoiler Alert**

The talking part is essential to those who never played any of the game franchise prior to watching the movie. It told us the story of Assassins and Templar, two groups/clan who fought over the years to gain access to the Apple of Eden. The Assassins are the protector of the Apple, which had the genetic code to access Human's free will, which the Templar aimed to use to destroy human's free will so that they will submit to whatever it is needed to follow one Templar. That's actually the basic of the Templar-Assassins rivalry.

The action part is great. You can see every bit there was in the game. The hidden blade, the swinging of axes and swords and poles....the most important thing of all - the leap of faith.
There are three leap of faiths performed, and only one we can actually see the Assassins landed. The thing is, the Assassin did not land on his back, how it was supposed to be. As it is turning from the medieval times to the present times, as the Animus was in the way of a perfect leap of faith, Callum Lynch (descendant of Assassin Aguilar de Nerha) landed on his feet.


And Animus aren't how it was in the game. The Animus in the movie is like a claw and it permitted movement of Callum to mimic and synchronize his ancestor's memory perfectly. The plot is great, I follow every part and I even felt the sadness when the female Assassin died. They truly sacrifice their life for the creed.

There's one part I like, where the creed's maxim is uttered through the language of the Great Mentor, Altair Ibn La Ahad,

لاشيء واقع مطلق، بل كل ممكن
La Shay'a Waqi'un Mutlaq, Bala Kulum Mumkin,

And it reverberated in the halls of the animus, several times, and we can see Callum embraces his inner Assassin and visited by many Assassins, surrounding him. That's when he decided that he would fight for the Assassins after revealing the hidden place of the Apple of Eden (pretty much too late, isn't it, Callum?)

But, (again, Spoiler) he made up for it at the end.

And I am very sure there's another Assassins Creed Movie in near future.
One will never let the movie end the way it did.

Well, that's all from me about my favorite gaming franchise's movie - Assassins Creed.

Saturday, November 19, 2016


when such a simple word of 'him'
meant a person instead of a mere word
when i heard the word,
thoughts flew to only one being
someone whom I never thought
would be big in my life
that only a simple word of 'him'
that my brain pointed directly
to him.

t'was towards the end of February
when the sight fell onto a slender silhouette
tall and fair, dimpled and impressive
just like how I pictured, always
immediately I thought of whats necessary
needs of talks arises like some kind of debt
showing calm, without being expressive
as I followed stepping out of doorways

there he stood, slender as ever
with two others talks and laughs
embarrassingly I joined with full smiles
the two introduced while he listened
whats next something he remembers
became inside jokes, forever, perhaps
he knew me, in preventive styles
which he regretted as we envisioned

the first meeting was way before
eleventh January to be very precise
like a damsel i required assistance
he came to help, thus how we first met
since then i vowed to have more
just be acquaintance would be very suffice
now we're more, regardless of distance
best of friends, more like a duet

to tell the truth there's more on my side
his images flashes whenever i'm awake
warming at first, very annoying as now
as I randomly smells of his manly perfume
feelings if any, i held all of it inside
unsure of any, afraid to make mistake
but very sure it'll bring me to my doom

but once I would like to record
this is the first that had happened
when that perfume I smell I think of one
seeing any body which is slender or slim
immediately him my brain moved toward
or seeing anyone with similar fashioned
with the simple word above means none
other than the man referred to as him

unknowingly so,
his feelings if its the same
preferred to keep it a secret
though I am not sure it is anymore
thinking he knew as he seemed so carefree
of teasing as if it was a mutual feeling
twas annoying but was very welcoming
probably of my feelings
that my heart unknowingly longed
after all these time
if he was, for me, my very own 'him'
then my search is over
because together,
our hearts would be mended.

An Ode from a Longing Heart

As sun arises and vision start
Images of a silhouette appeared in dream
Bearing words and acts which rattle heart
All though in dream as much it seem

Illogical, say, as just awaken
Dream as none silhouette at near
The brain conjour he who has taken
Tucking string of heart that just now so clear

T'is an ode for one whom caught me surprise
Once so ordinary now whom cant be without
I show not my face let it all a disguise
Remained so until nothing is a doubt.

Sunday, June 5, 2016

My very first Review of my very first book!

First of all, for those who had a copy of my book in their possession, I would like to say Thank you very much (spasiba - sorry I couldnt write it in cyrillic, I do not have cyrillic keyboard near me right now) for your support and I really hope you will enjoy reading my book, as it is my first. For those who had finish reading my book, I would appreciate it if you write your sincerest review in Goodreads so that I will be aware of the negative and positive aspects in my first book. So that I will not repeat the negatives in my second book, and enhance the positives.

You know how it is about reviews, right?

So I've received the very first review of my book from a fellow novelist. Oh thank you very much for your kind review! It made me pumped up. It's like i'm one of the hyperactive kids given sugar when I've read the review. I was like, so very excited.

Here is the review from hte fellow novelist. As I havent asked her permission (yep, the reviewer is a her) to share her review, so please understand why I scribbled off her name. (I should've gotten her permission first, huh? But I'm writing this at 12.49, so I doubt that she's still awake, so let me just post this first...okay....)

For those who would like to submit their review to me and not via goodreads you can do so by contacting me via facebook or my email address as written at the back of my books. Please note that I am not active on facebook and that I cannot view messenger's messaging invitation through PC and please be patient that I may not read your text as soon as you posted them. Unless you texted me through FB messages and not through messenger. I dont know how it is because I am a little confused of FB messenger. I dont know why the invitation to message via messenger cannot be viewed through facebook's messages.

Anyway, for those who had a copy of my book, read and give reviews yeah? They're very important...Heeeee

If you do not have a copy of my book yet and you're interested to buy one please go to Jemari Seni website and buy it from there. I am not sure if the bookstores already had copies of my books yet, but, I hope they do!

Till next time,

Happy Ramadhan!

Thursday, June 2, 2016

Today is supposed to be Her 27th Birthday

Diyana Azmina Mustafa Kamal was my roommate during our National Service days. She's kind, helpful and when I'm in raw with other roomates (Yep, I was that kind of person) she will be standing in the middle being the middle voice and voice of reason. She's nice that way, she's a good person. And like they said, the good die young.

She died nearly 5 years ago in 2011. Her death was caused by something about her colon - I am not really sure. And I knew about her death on her birthday two years later. And talk about guilt - I am feeling guilty to this day that I did not wish for her health and did not pray for her when she was sick. I did not know that she was sick. And when I did knew of her death, I spent hours praying for her. Not that I want to say I'm a good friend, but she is...was. And I was just compensating the loss of a good friend who's taken too early from this world.

And today is supposed to be her 27th birthday.

And I still feel guilty to this day.

Diyana Azmina, I know you wouldn't read this. Why would you when I've been a horrible friend?
But I hope that you forgive me for not knowing of your death and not praying for you for two years before I knew.

Diyana Azmina Mustafa Kamal

Saturday, May 28, 2016

Anthology "Helo"

There's an offer for those who can write in Malay, for an Anthology book entitled "Helo".
For those who's interested to write a short story based on the word Helo (Whatever you wanted to write about, about phone calls, about greetings, about two people meeting for the first time after being pen pals for so long, or about the last name "hello"), you can learn about it more in JS Adiwarna facebook page!

I, on the other hand, couldnt write in Malay, but of course, one day I will try.
Nobody could understand the hardness for me to write in Malay, being a Malaysian and all, but Malay isnt my first language. It wasnt even my second language! It's my third language. So, no. My grammar in Malay is worst than my English, if you think that my English grammar is bad (in which I think so too).

I am pretty much interested to write something about Hello, but as I cannot write in Malay, I thought that it might be best that I used some of the ideas I have right now to add a few missing things in my new novels.

I'm planning to integrate some of the other languages that I've known in my new book. Probably Thai, or even Russian. But as I've had a chechen character in my first novel, It is very unlikely that I'll write of a Russian character in my second novel. Probably in my third or fourth novel, god's willing.

Anyway, about the anthology Hello, I wish everyone who participated in it good luck.

There is one thing that's certain.
I cant wait to read the book!

Saturday, May 14, 2016

I think my muse left me right after I published my first novel.

Being an author, a published author that is, is what I really dreamed of since I was very young. Writing is just a hobby for me back then, but I have high hopes of being an author, that someday I will publish my book and have my name written at the bottom of the books.

Yep, high hope it is.

Now, my first book had been published....Released during 2016 PBAKL. My very first baby. The book that I've start written in 2012, finally completed in 2014. The book that my friends decided to send the manuscript on my behalf. The book that was finally accepted after my other manuscript was rejected. And I was overwhelmed.

Maybe that feeling had yet to leave me that every books I have written after that, every pages of it, seemed not to my expectation. I didnt feel the words I've written. I didn't get the vibes I was hoping for on every pages. I've reread all my books after I decided to publish my first book, the Terrorist's wife.

What's the meaning of this? Somehow I felt as if a part of me is empty. I cannot write anymore. I cannot express my views like I did before publishing my book. Why is it happening? All those scenarios I had, that I had imagined, that was desperately needed to be written - I've written it, pages after pages...and when I reread it, the feeling isnt there. I cannot do it anymore. The words I've used did not seem to bend into my will in order to convey what I wanted the story to feel like. When it was supposed to be sad, somehow, the words I've used seemed happy and cute. When I wanted to describe love, suddenly I've described sadness and longing.

Seriously, what is happening to me?

Is this what they said as a first-time author jinx?

Or has my muse left me?

Oh muse, return to me please, I need you so very much!


Anyway for those of you who wanted to read my first book, the early chapters of The Terrorist's wife, you can do so by clicking here and follow the links.

If you want to read more of it after reading the early chapters, please do buy my books - online, starting June 2016! If you want an autograph-ed version, do tell me and I will try to arrange it with the publisher before sending to to you. ^^

And if you already bought my books, Thank you very much!!! I really appreciate it. Thanks for your support. If you enjoyed or did not enjoy my book, please write a review on my goodreads page. Click the picture of my book for direct link to the goodreads page:

Thank you very much for reading my ramblings today.
Come again and visit me!

Fifi Y Phillipps

Saturday, May 7, 2016

PBAKL or KLIBF 2016 and my book!

PBAKL (Pesta Buku Antarabangsa Kuala Lumpur / Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair) had started on 29 April and will end on 9 May 2016. I attended the second day, the 30th but I was only there for 30 minutes, give or take. It was such an unplanned visit that I have limited time there.

I was there for my new book.


I am a published author now.

My book is entitled The Terrorist's Wife, and will be formally published in June 2016 (as it said so in my book). It is about a woman whose life had been turned upside down when her angelic of a husband had been arrested for being a terrorist. And how she had been living in denial and disbelieve that she decided to find the truth for herself and hopefully release her husband.

So that's it. Feel free to buy my book beginning June 2016 at JemariSeni Website!!

If it is released in the nearest bookstore, I'll inform, yeah?

The feeling was sooooooooooo overwhelming.
I couldn't believe it! I mean, it is like a dream come true. I've been writing since I was twelve and I have lots of unfinished manuscript that now I've published one complete manuscript, I was like, addicted (if that is allowed) to publish more.

I dont know what to do during the meetings with other Authors. I mean, I was shaking all the way, I was like, I never ever imagined being a published author after spending many many years telling myself that my dreams would just remain a dream and can never come true. Now that it did...well, i hope anyone who meet me during PBAKL will forgive me for being such a mess and doesnt know what to do, because I never prepared myself for the day my book is finally published. I was shaking even by holding the books in my hands!

And I am still overwhelmed now that I dont even know what to write. It is so unusual for Fifi Phillipps to write such a short entry. And it only happened just a couple times before.
Ha Ha Ha

So come and visit JS booth at PBAKL @ MAEPS!!
(UPDATE, it ended now)

So come and buy my books and write a review in Goodread's website!!
Positive or negative comments, I wouldnt mind. The positive will keep me going and the negative ones will drive me to be better!

Yours sincerely,


Thursday, April 28, 2016

My Krabi Trip: The Experience

Ceh, the title so very dramatic lah.


But seriously, I wanted to share about my experience in Krabi.

I arrived on 17 April 2016 after two flights. Oh, my headache! I felt like my head was going to burst off and I couldnt wait to get my feet on land. Then, I arrived at Krabi International Airport.

Honestly, It wasnt the kind of Airport that I've expected. I've expected to see somekind like Kuching International Airport, of being an International Airport even though less grander than the KLIA or even KLIA2. But it is more like a secondary Airport here in Sarawak, like Miri Airport, or even Bintulu Airport. It was small, yes, but it can accommodate foreigners. So there's that.


Before entering Thailand you're given these cards, and you have to fill in everything.
It's for immigration purposes.

Welcome to Krabi International Airport.
My very clean passport

Then I booked a transport ticket to Ao Nang, towards our hotel. The ride was pleasant but their culture of driving is quite different from us Kuchingites. They honk at every opportunities, while we, Kuchingites, never honks. They honk to tell someone in front to give way to them. I still remember when Mr Sayan, my acquaintance from Thailand, drove my car and he honked, I told him, You dont have to honk in Kuching. If you want to overtake just overtake when the line is clear. If it is not, then you wait for the opportunity. Just dont Honk.

Maybe that's the culture talking, but that's one of the things that's different that I see. But I just have to get use to it. Because I'm not in Kuching. That's the whole purpose of travelling, is it not, to observe other's culture and differences?

The taxi driver stopped for a while at the taxi station while there's a lady asking us to get in her shop for some tour package deals. They said it's very cheap and stuffs, but I've known that their prices would be higher than those you can haggle for at those shops near Ao Nang beach. After saying no multiple tiles to the lady, we continued to go to Ao Nang where our hotel stood waiting.

In the private taxi

 We checked into the hotel at about 2 o'clock Krabi Time (Thailand GMT +7), and after getting used to everything in the room, we went out for a walk to Ao Nang Beach, going there using Tuk Tuk.

My Hotel
You could guess by my posture that I'm very tired but I still wanted to walk around Ao Nang.

Ao Nang Beach

There's boxing matches 18 April 2016. The boxers look soooo young.

This is the middle of Ao Nang Beach. Sorry for the woman in front. Even though my friend is pointing her camera at me, She still walks towards the landmark and pose while her husband readied his camera. Seriously. I think it is common knowledge that when people pose for photos you just dont enter the frame. But then maybe that's only Malaysian common knowledge, I dont know.

At least I can say that I was photobombed by a Chinese tourist.

Ok I know I'm not pretty, but I really wanted to post a selfie here..XD

Part of the fish landmark. And Krabian do look like these. With their slender built and tough hands and legs. Oh, one Krabian I know have veiny hands. Like really veiny hands.

We bought tour packages around Ao Nang Beach at the stronger travel agency. They gave us good price so we buy from them. Then, after more walks along the beaches, we took some pictures and we left the beach for late lunch aka early dinner and then we went back to our hotel.

The moneys......


This guy accompany me while the driver from Ao Nang Speedboat Tour come pick us up. I dont know whether it's a girl or a boy but it is owned, because there's a bell there.

Our hands with the AoNang Speed Boat Tour wristband. There's a lot of people there so the tour agency have this as an identification.

At the Ao Nang Pier.

Even looking at these pictures triggers my calm moods.

Once upon a tree.
Upon googling, I found out that the two characters formed "Kim"

If you want to have the same tour guide as I am (his name is YAN and he's very funny), call this number for package inquiry: +66-087-8843162

The Speedboat View

Our first stop: The Bamboo Island

Coral washed onto the shore.

Look at how clear the waters were

Second stop: Viking Cave.
We only passed through as it is a government protected place.

The waters....OMG

Next up: MAYA BAY.
Too many people so I dont enjoy it much. It is beautiful, of course, but the people made me felt like If I can choose, I wouldn't go here that day.

See...Too many people that you cannot have a decent selfie without being suffocated.
Nah I'm exaggerating.

But still I took pictures...and posed.

Next UP: Monkey Island. See the Monkey???

Last stop before snorkeling: PHI PHI DON ISLAND
The attraction of them all.
We have lunch here too.
Very Thai-Like

Phi phi Don

Then we snorkel at PHI PHI LEY

And then we head home. This is what they gave us for refreshments, along with many bottled cold waters. Ah, refreshing.

Haha, I wanted to show you that this is made in Thailand. Seen so many products of Malaysia, It is nice to see a product of Thailand once in a while. Ceh, even my hair products are products of Thailand. So I've been seeing Products of Thailand everywhere before I'm in Krabi. But then again, seeing this in Krabi really tells me that I have stepped foot on the land of the elephant.

At the end of the day, I am Pink. (The next day the pink turns brown.)


We go sightseeing today before our Hong Island tour.

The Ao Nang Mosque
Ao Nang Road

See the green hooded thing? That's a Tuk Tuk.
If you didnt already know.

Like a Fishery Hatchery. As I was a Fishery Data Analyst, I found this intriguing.

The Hong Island Pier. I think that's what it said.

Any Thais here? Help me translate please..hehe
Yep I have Thai Friends but i dont want to bother them.

So We got in the speedboat and we went cruising! It only took about 20 minutes to our destination. Here are the scenery we encountered.

Inside the speedboat

Entrance to Hong Lagoon. Our First destination

Me at Hong Island. See how the Pinks turned Brown?

The clear waters of Hong Lagoon

Around Hong Island

Second destination: At Koh Phak Bia

Forgive my elatedness here in Koh Phak Bia

Fishy! Why are you sleeping!

Next up: Koh Lao La Ding.
We have lunch here

Again, forgive my elatedness. Haha

Our Third Destination: Hong Island Beach

See how clear the Hong Island Beach waters?

I learnt how to write my name in Thai from a friend. Once I finished it, someone stepped on it!

And I've become darker and darker with each boat ride.
But it's worth it

Time to go back to Hotel.

So that way is Phuket....Okay.....


We packed that night and early morning. So once the clock strike 11, we checked out of our hotel and the taxi driver brought us to the airport. We went pass this restaurant on our way back. it is in front of Shell.

But that's the end of it. There's no more photo I took after this. So this is the end of my photo journey. Ceh..hahaha...reaaallll dramatic!

 So here it is, my 2 full days of Krabi Experience.
Oh, I'm lost for words. Really, I miss this place like a lot.