Anthology "Helo"

There's an offer for those who can write in Malay, for an Anthology book entitled "Helo".
For those who's interested to write a short story based on the word Helo (Whatever you wanted to write about, about phone calls, about greetings, about two people meeting for the first time after being pen pals for so long, or about the last name "hello"), you can learn about it more in JS Adiwarna facebook page!

I, on the other hand, couldnt write in Malay, but of course, one day I will try.
Nobody could understand the hardness for me to write in Malay, being a Malaysian and all, but Malay isnt my first language. It wasnt even my second language! It's my third language. So, no. My grammar in Malay is worst than my English, if you think that my English grammar is bad (in which I think so too).

I am pretty much interested to write something about Hello, but as I cannot write in Malay, I thought that it might be best that I used some of the ideas I have right now to add a few missing things in my new novels.

I'm planning to integrate some of the other languages that I've known in my new book. Probably Thai, or even Russian. But as I've had a chechen character in my first novel, It is very unlikely that I'll write of a Russian character in my second novel. Probably in my third or fourth novel, god's willing.

Anyway, about the anthology Hello, I wish everyone who participated in it good luck.

There is one thing that's certain.
I cant wait to read the book!

I think my muse left me right after I published my first novel.

Being an author, a published author that is, is what I really dreamed of since I was very young. Writing is just a hobby for me back then, but I have high hopes of being an author, that someday I will publish my book and have my name written at the bottom of the books.

Yep, high hope it is.

Now, my first book had been published....Released during 2016 PBAKL. My very first baby. The book that I've start written in 2012, finally completed in 2014. The book that my friends decided to send the manuscript on my behalf. The book that was finally accepted after my other manuscript was rejected. And I was overwhelmed.

Maybe that feeling had yet to leave me that every books I have written after that, every pages of it, seemed not to my expectation. I didnt feel the words I've written. I didn't get the vibes I was hoping for on every pages. I've reread all my books after I decided to publish my first book, the Terrorist's wife.

What's the meaning of this? Somehow I felt as if a part of me is empty. I cannot write anymore. I cannot express my views like I did before publishing my book. Why is it happening? All those scenarios I had, that I had imagined, that was desperately needed to be written - I've written it, pages after pages...and when I reread it, the feeling isnt there. I cannot do it anymore. The words I've used did not seem to bend into my will in order to convey what I wanted the story to feel like. When it was supposed to be sad, somehow, the words I've used seemed happy and cute. When I wanted to describe love, suddenly I've described sadness and longing.

Seriously, what is happening to me?

Is this what they said as a first-time author jinx?

Or has my muse left me?

Oh muse, return to me please, I need you so very much!

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Anyway for those of you who wanted to read my first book, the early chapters of The Terrorist's wife, you can do so by clicking here and follow the links.

If you want to read more of it after reading the early chapters, please do buy my books - online, starting June 2016! If you want an autograph-ed version, do tell me and I will try to arrange it with the publisher before sending to to you. ^^

And if you already bought my books, Thank you very much!!! I really appreciate it. Thanks for your support. If you enjoyed or did not enjoy my book, please write a review on my goodreads page. Click the picture of my book for direct link to the goodreads page:

Thank you very much for reading my ramblings today.
Come again and visit me!

Yours,
Fifi Y Phillipps

PBAKL or KLIBF 2016 and my book!

PBAKL (Pesta Buku Antarabangsa Kuala Lumpur / Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair) had started on 29 April and will end on 9 May 2016. I attended the second day, the 30th but I was only there for 30 minutes, give or take. It was such an unplanned visit that I have limited time there.

I was there for my new book.

yes.

I am a published author now.

My book is entitled The Terrorist's Wife, and will be formally published in June 2016 (as it said so in my book). It is about a woman whose life had been turned upside down when her angelic of a husband had been arrested for being a terrorist. And how she had been living in denial and disbelieve that she decided to find the truth for herself and hopefully release her husband.

So that's it. Feel free to buy my book beginning June 2016 at JemariSeni Website!!

If it is released in the nearest bookstore, I'll inform, yeah?

The feeling was sooooooooooo overwhelming.
I couldn't believe it! I mean, it is like a dream come true. I've been writing since I was twelve and I have lots of unfinished manuscript that now I've published one complete manuscript, I was like, addicted (if that is allowed) to publish more.

I dont know what to do during the meetings with other Authors. I mean, I was shaking all the way, I was like, I never ever imagined being a published author after spending many many years telling myself that my dreams would just remain a dream and can never come true. Now that it did...well, i hope anyone who meet me during PBAKL will forgive me for being such a mess and doesnt know what to do, because I never prepared myself for the day my book is finally published. I was shaking even by holding the books in my hands!

And I am still overwhelmed now that I dont even know what to write. It is so unusual for Fifi Phillipps to write such a short entry. And it only happened just a couple times before.
Ha Ha Ha

So come and visit JS booth at PBAKL @ MAEPS!!
(UPDATE, it ended now)

So come and buy my books and write a review in Goodread's website!!
Positive or negative comments, I wouldnt mind. The positive will keep me going and the negative ones will drive me to be better!

Yours sincerely,

Fifi