Just started writing in Wattpad

I have just started writing in Wattpad. I am an author and my only book as of date has been published in 2016. It was 9 years ago. I have yet to publish another book. And I decided to write again but I do not have any means to publish. My other works got rejected and my self confidence plummetted. So I decided to try to write in Wattpad because there are systems for the readers to comment. I am writing about Helena, a princess born in exile, being the rightful heir of the kingdom but the new king who won the throne by right of conquest were hunting her for fifteen years, the people were not happy and neglected. So their hope rested with the princess that they did not know was dead or alive. When she was finally out and about at a friendly territory, even the foreign dignitaries decided to meet with her and offer support when she asked (of course, for something in return).

And for now that's it that I had publish. I could publish chapter by chapter, which is good. You can come and find the book entitled Young Helena and give me some comments. I really need the comments to see if I still have what it takes to be an author again. Here is the link: https://www.wattpad.com/story/392910607-young-helena-a-princess-without-a-realm and do comment on it if you have time to read it! Thanks in advance

Story of the Yanxi Palace

I know, people who knew me would tell me that, Eh, i thought you said you didnt like Yanxi palace because its counteract Ruyi's Royal Love in the Palace. Hear me out here. Yes, I did say that. Previously. I have watched Ruyi's Royal Love on repeat for more than 20 times. All 87 episodes. I could understand and memorize the script, albiet in Traditional Chinese, and will know which scene was it without even looking. And i LOVED that drama! However, it has been a while since i last repeat the series (I stopped watching a little bit when my little girl turned one -- Hey, i started watching when I got morning sickness from my pregnancy with my second born, and kept on repeating it until she turns one. How many times would you say I repeated watching? More than 20 is an understatement, I tell you that), and I had moved a little to Legend of Zhen Huan, which is not a big move, as they came from the same line of production - is that the term? I was told that Legend of Zhen Huan is the prequel of Ruyi's Royal Love, so there's that. But, after few months of not watching period drama, whenever i see someone using cheongsam, i felt something off. I wanted to watch period drama but i dont want to repeat Ruyi and Zhen Huan. I want something new. So i double back to Yanxi Palace. And that was then i realized. The Wei Yingluo was not that different than Wei Yanwan. They have the same temper, same cunningly attitude - but Wei Yanwan is not that sharp compared to Wei Yingluo. Yingluo's motive of being closer to the palace, entering the palace and move her way up is different than Yanwan, who just wants to be rich and live comfortably (although she kept on thinking people wants to get to her so much that I was like, please lah, you're not the centre of the world). Nara Shushen and Nara Ruyi was also not that different, in the first 10 episodes. Both came from family that have downfalls, both encouraged by family to fight for favour. Both did not want to fight for favour, you know, as such. The differences are, Lord Fuheng plays larger role in Yanxi Palace, the Xiaoxian Empress were too kind in Yanxi Palace... And turns out I like the Yanxi Palace though I don't repeat like I did with Ruyi. I mean, they spoke of the same persons but are different in any way. Yanxi Palace did not mention much of the Prince, just the popular ones so there's that. So try watching them all! They are all entertaining.

I am currently OBSESSED with Ruyi's Royal Love in the Palace

This C-Drama (yes, a new one for me - horrayyyy a milestone!- getting obsessed with C-Drama), also known as The Legend of Ruyi (trad. Chinese 如懿傳) is starred by Zhou Xun (she's pretty) and Wallace Huo.

- You know, previously I think I did watch some of Wallace Huo's tv series before but I don't remember which one - I think the TV series might air  around the same time as Fong Sai Yuk. -

This series of 87 episodes (in which i streamed more than 10 times) follows the step of Step-Empress Nara (played by Zhou Xun) (some say her last name is Hoifa Nara, while others claimed it was Ula Nara) before and during the Qianlong Emperor's (played by Wallace Huo) reign as his consort until her death in 1766 of Tuberculosis.

Why I am obsessed? Well....

It is about someone bullying and scheming against someone else, and the victim (the Empress Nara) usually had to defend herself against all the bullying and scheming that she had to scheme to so that the emperor or the empress dowager aware of what is going on in the harem.

She did not begin her marriage as the first wife and empress once Qianlong Emperor ascend the throne, she's there after the first Empress of Fuca clan died.

And that's not just it.

While the ones scheming sometimes showed themselves from the first episode that they are going to scheme, however, there is some instigation as well that I had to really focus on to get what they mean, and to understand at which point they decided to do the unthinkable.

You know, after watching the series for more than 10 times, I still had a lingering question

Who was the Yu Prince that Consort Jia kept on refering to? When I search in Wikipedia, it stated that the Yu Prince was the Joseon Crown Prince. When I tracked historically of which Joseon Crown Prince had became King at that timeframe, it was King Yeongjo.

HOWEVER, the Yu Prince was mentioned to have forced his primary wife to commit suicide, but King Yeongjo's first primary wife lived until she was well above 60 years old!

So who's the Yu Prince? Is there any other Korean Prince-ly state around, because it is very interesting when we watch these types of historical drama, and can relate to its corresponding historical fact (although not all in the drama is a fact, sometimes they just twist things up to make it interesting).

There is another historical anomaly here. Empress Xiaojingxian died few years before the Yinzhen Emperor, but in the series, it was said she died after the emperor, by act of suicide.

But sure, let's make it interesting.

Hey. Every historical drama or biological drama / movie has to be twisted up a little bit, or not it will be a bit boring.

Right?

Anyway.

Let's repeat Ruyi's Royal Love in the Palace for the 11th time!

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me, 
Black as the pit from pole to pole, 
I thank whatever gods may be 
For my unconquerable soul.  

In the fell clutch of circumstance 
I have not winced nor cried aloud. 
Under the bludgeonings of chance 
My head is bloody, but unbowed.  

Beyond this place of wrath and tears 
Looms but the Horror of the shade, 
And yet the menace of the years 
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.  

It matters not how strait the gate, 
How charged with punishments the scroll, 
I am the master of my fate: 
I am the captain of my soul 

William Ernest Henley (1849–1903)

My 3 days admitted. As a "test subject".

Yep.
Test subject I would rather called myself rather than being a maternity ward patient.

Roll eyes.

I was admitted for 3 days.
Mind you I have been admitted numerous times before. But this time I cannot take it. Everything.
So long story short, I applied for DAMA. Discharged dishonorably. Haha. Kidding.

Discharged against medical advice.

Firstly. I went to the local government hospital in our area because my obgyn referred me there. My obgyn worked at a private hospital also in our area. Not to say that I can afford private but I just want to share my thoughts.

She referred me because we thought I was leaking. Bear this in mind. This will come back to haunt me later. I was 27 weeks pregnant. So of course I don't want to give birth early. I want my baby to be in perfect health! So when we thought I was leaking, the private hospital did not have any specialists for premature babies. They do have, but they would call specialists from the government hospital, which would be a lengthy procedures, so to cut it short, my doctor referred me there.

So. I arrived there around fifteen minutes later.

I went to the labour ward. The doctor probed me (in which i don't care. I just want to know what is wrong with me). She said I wasn't leaking. But she wanted to keep me in at least one day to observe.

I was ok with that, even though I had a mild homesickness (as since I got married I never slept away and I never left my husband's side, so I was worried of his well being as how he's worried of mine). So I spend my first night there.

Then, on to my second day.
Nothing was done on to me. No tests...no nothing.
No news of discharge. I experienced no pain. But I was still there for observation.
Husband came during visitation hours. Cried a bit because I missed him. Then he left once visitation hours ended.
Specialist came to see me and ask me if i had any more leakage. I told her I wore my panties and see nothing - they're clean and dry.

Pretty much that's it for my second day.

My third day. This was a little bit eventful.
Suddenly, another specialist came.
She asked me the same question - if I had any more leakage. I told her that I wore panty liners and they're clean and dry since day 1.
Then this word came out of her mouth. I quoted her directly.

"Okay, I see there is nothing  wrong with you and your baby. You have no leakage, the labour ward doctor also said  you did not have any apparent rupture anywhere and your waters seems okay, and did not lessened. You appear to be okay."

I was glad. But that wasnt the end.

"But you said you were leaking."

I frowned. I did not say I was leaking. I thought I was leaking. And it was proven by the labour room doctor that I was not leaking. But I didnt say anything because I didnt have time. She cut me through my determinedly open mouth.

"So," she continued. "We're going to treat you as if you are leaking."

The only word that got out of my mouth was - "What?"

She did not look at me or even acknowledge my existence as a human being so she continued to write on my case note.

"We'll give you dexamethasone - to mature up the baby's heart in case you have to push out early. You wil lbe given erythromysin to combat bacteria. If you have leakage then we're afraid  you'll be infected." Then she turned to the nurses. "Is she having fever?"

"No," the nurses said.

"Never mine, treat her as if she's having fever. Give her antibiotics."

Then, without any warning, without asking for my consent, I was given 2 doses of dexamethanose, and I have to inject erythromysin in order to combat bacteria that wasnt there.

The next day, I told them that I wanted to be discharged. I told them that there was nothing wrong with me. So they took my blood test. This one I consented. Because I wanted to show them that there was nothing wrong so let me go home.

My blood test was.....I dont know how to describe. My HB plummets. My WBC risen up. I didnt have fever. My heartbeat exceeded 100bps. And suddenly, the specialist came again and told me;

"Oh dear, your WBC count rises. Your heartbeat exceeded 100bps, this is different case entirely. You have to stay for one more day and we'll treat you for tyroid."

My eyes widened.
Tyroid? I dont have tyroid.
I know if I have tyroid.

My heartbeat exceeded 100bps because I have asthma and I was given dexa. It was a common side effect. Everyone knows that, just like how Ventolin affects you. I told them i have asthma in my health record. It is impossible they didnt know.

My WBC count rises because my body was told that there are bacteria that needed killing where there isnt any. This is common knowledge.

And suddenly, without diagnosing me with tyroid, they're treating me for tyroid?

I couldnt take it anymore. So I told them.

"Discharge me"

"We can't"

"Yes you can. Discharge me."

"You're not well."

"I am well. Discharge me."

"Sorry, we still have to treat you."

"Then discharge me. I wanted to be discharged against whatever you said. I wanted to be discharged against your medical advise."

Then the specialist didnt say any word.
She ignored me fully.

Nobody came to talk to me. Not even the nurses.
Suddenly, when it was nearing night time, I went to the nurses counter and asked what's next.

"Oh, you're being discharged. Why havent you change?"

I frowned. Nobody said anything to me. I know, i wanted to be discharged, but nobody said anything about me getting the discharge I wanted.

But I dont care. I'm out. So I went and changed to my everyday clothes and walked out of the ward as a free mom to be.

And that's not all.
They said i didnt deserve sick leave for all the days I spent in the ward.
Because i was against their advise.
Stupid, right?
But I dont care. I rather have less annual leave (to compensate the days I spent in ward), than to have my body injected with something that will not cure me of something that i didnt have.

So that's my story, of being admitted. I thought I felt like a test subject, hence, the subject.

Thank you for reading my ramblings.
Back to work guys.

Btw,

I am no more a scientist now. I am a researcher.

Same thing? Maybe.