Remembering Jules Bianchi

I know that I dont know him personally, but still, there's some times when I lay down and the thoughts of him pops to my head. How did he felt when he was going through the nine silent months?

And that's what I wanted to write today.

I dont want that to be the lingering memory of him. I wanted to remember him as the smiling happy person that touches everyone's heart. I wanted to remember him like that.

Like when you open a google search about him, you'll get images of him, like in a memory-like.
(but now when i search for him, there's a lot of his pictures, smiling. That's more i like it).

So this is me, just rambling on monday morning as I remembered Jules Bianchi.

A champion of our hearts.

#UPDATE#

Just reading something on Quantum Immortality (or something), that someone who died in our Universe, can be still alive in another universe. Maybe in another Universe Jules, who wasnt a formula one driver was still alive, and was now already having a wife and kids with the girlfriend. Or, if he is a formula one, probably in another universe, he didnt had that crash in Suzuka, and would now had a great contract with Ferrari in 2016. Or, if he did had that crash, the collapse he had didnt happen.

That's the life that could never been. A loss that could never be recovered.

Whatever it is, it was only in the other universe. This universe had lost a great man. And he will forever be in our hearts.

Jules Bianchi Died of Suzuka Injuries (3 August 1989 - 17 July 2015)

the most iconic gif of Jules, where he wiped his helmet during race stop.

It is a sad sad day for the world of Formula One and Motorracing. Jules Bianchi, a rising star, died from a injuries of a crash he had in Japanese Grand Prix, Suzuka, October last year. The crash happened only days prior to my birthday. So it doubled up the sadness I had.

the Jules Bianchi Suzuka Crash

I had blogged last year about Jules Bianchi woke up - he was actually out of his artificial induced coma, and could breath unaided - he wasnt waking up completely. He never did.

He had diffused axional injuries, if i am not mistaken (refer his wikipedia page) - that was the injuries he sustained from the horrible crash with the tractor which was clearing the track off Adrian Sutil's car. Adrian Sutil crashed at the same corner, but he crashed to a cushioned, tyre-lined concrete wall, if i am not mistaken, but Jules was unlucky, and he crashed onto the tractor which moved Adrian Sutil's car out of the way.

My prayers are with your families and loved ones, Jules. To your friends and everyone who knew you personally, be strong. I am just a fan whom Jules had no knowledge I had existed, but I felt the burden of losing him.



I also had blogged earlier, and had numerous tweets about him. I blogged about the tribute to Jules Bianchi, which I had hoped when he woke up from his coma, he could open the page and view all those tribute they made for him on the next race after Japanese Grand Prix last year. But he never had a chance for it. We had lost him. We had lost a fighter. We had lost a racer, a great one. He could've been a winner, but God loves him more. God wants him by His side. And who are we to deny it?

I had tweeted, mentioning him, everytime i felt like missing him. And now, I will miss him more, now that i know he was no more. Now that I know i never had an opportunity to fulfill my number 17th on my bucket list - meeting Jules Bianchi in person. You'll be sorely missed. I know it, because I already miss you now, Jules. Even though I never knew you personally.



I hope you're happy there now. I hope your family and loved ones are strong to get through the days without you. I hope they get their chances to say goodbye, like how I cant. But this is it. This is my goodbye to you, Jules. Goodbye.



Oh, and your smiles always soothes me. Whenever I am stressed, I could just play some gifs where you're smiling and I'll be relaxing. Whenever people asked whose smile I like the most, I wouldnt say Fernando Alonso's or Nico Hulkenberg's. Jules' smiles is the second in the rank, after my mother, and before my future husband (whom i have yet to know his identity, but i hope he ranks above Alonso and Hulkenberg - I wouldnt worry he outrank Jules, because he never will).

Here are the Gifs I found online. To remind us what a great person who had lived on this earth. To remind us what a happy person he was. To remind us what a kind person we lost. To remind us what a potential he had. To remind us of a life he had, living the dream as a formula one racer.

Look at him hiding his red bull can, probably as an attempt to not offend his sponsors :')

Rest In Peace, Requiescat in Pace, Jules Bianchi.

We will always remember you. We will always miss you. Our love for you will never fade.
You will forever in our hearts.
The warmth of his smiles will always haunt me. In a good way.

p/s: I hope, after this, there will no more racers to die of Formula One race crash injuries. We had hoped for this after late Ayrton Senna (peace be with his soul), but Jules Bianchi (peace be with his soul too) happened. I dont think the safe cockpit design for formula one is hideous. I think it is great. and safe.

And JB also stood for Jenson Button, so JB17 always meant Jules, while JB22 meant Jenson. Just Saying.

The Mentalist Finale

It all happened like symmetry, that's how I think I'm going to describe that.

And for better or worse, I finished watching the episode at 1.55 am Friday Morning, and it is bad. I never stayed up this late after my University days.

But this is not what I wanted to talk about (if you have seen my other entries, you can see I say that a lot because sometimes my hand wrote something out of the topic because my brain sometimes went out branching to another stories before my other part of the brain - probably my logical ones, I dont know, I dont know anything about cognitive - finally acknowledge that I'm actually wanted to talk about something entirely different when I wrote this post). I'm gonna talk about The Mentalist, which ends Thursday, about 9.30-10.15am Malaysian time.

I said about late sleeping time to tell you how much I wanted to really watch it, because I do not have time to stream the episode at the airing time - I was at a different place with not quite good internet line. So I have to stream it at right after 12.30 am Friday. And now I'm Branching again.

Getting back on the topic - like i said, it happened like a symmetry, like something that happened in repeat, only in this case, it is not on repeat. it is of similar things, but it is of opposite things. Get it?

Well, let me give you some examples.

Lets state up the obvious first. On the last episode of the Mentalist, Jane and Lisbon got married, and Lisbon revealed later that she's pregnant. Both happened at the very end of the episode. This is significant. When we first introduced to Jane by the series in the first episode, at that very end of the first episode, it was revealed that Jane had lost his wife and daughter to Red John, a serial killer (I'll get to the serial killer thing later).

Pretty Wedding dress, huh? But Jane looks like how he always looked. I would prefer if he, somehow, had a new hair cut or something...

So, the first episode we know that Jane had lost a wife and a kid.
And at the last episode, we know that Jane have gained a wife and a kid.

awwww

That's the kind of opposite I was telling you about.

The Serial Killer thingy was also quite the kind of opposite I want to tell. At the first episode, we were exposed to Red John, getting to know him, getting to learn about him, his symbol or something. In the last episode, however, the team was putting an end to Lazarus, a serial killer.

So, the first episode we getting to know a serial killer.
and at the last episode, the team putting an end to a serial killer.

So that's it....only two obvious opposite thingies that i've discovered, hoping to discover more along the way.

the matrimony

Ah, the Mentalist had ended. End of an era.

I loved the character so much (not in love, but loved) that he inspired me to be someone who can read someone else. But i couldnt. I just dont have the eye. But if someone could teach me, I'm a great student. A fast learner in fact.

So, goodbye guys..thanks for the network who brought The Mentalist for us. It's a great show and I'm going to miss all the characters and all the episodes...There's just not one series like it.

Goodbye.

Photo credit: Ibtimes.co.uk

Syamin Jasmi @ Hills Yesterday Y'all!

Yep, the one and only Syamin Jasmi, the young man with a beautiful voice performed at The Hills yesterday. He performed as a part of an opening act for Afgan's Live to Love.....something....Honestly I forgot...Dont bash me, Afganisme, you cant blame me for not into your Afgan.

I am there not for Afgan, surely, but if given a chance to hear the voice of Afgan live, well, i couldnt resist. But I am there for Syamin Jasmi, whom I had known to sing very well live. I enjoyed his song, his single, Lagi & Lagi, even though I couldn't really see him! Well, I dont think many people knew his song, but after that day, i think lots of people were searching the web for his song! Dont worry, dearies, the MP3 is not released yet, but if you wanted to hear his song, you can go to Youtube and type his name!

Dont worry, I will embed the video here too...



It is a very nice song! The song is very addictive that it totally filled the empty parts of my brain and it follows me everywhere I go. It is THAT addictive. I hope you enjoy the song as much as I do.. Come on, play it!


Yeah, speaking of not being able to see him during his performance and didnt get to cramp in during his selfie session on stage, I get to see him back stage! So i get that going on for me which is nice (VERY nice)

Although there were a lot of people pushing and pushing to get his pic, I get to take a pic with him too!

Well, he is a big name in the making!

Wish you a very good luck and We will always support you, Syamin Jasmi!



So, Cheers for you! <3 p="">
The last pic is of Aneurin Barnard, which has nothing to do with what I have posted, but as I am a big fan of Aneurin Barnard, I really wanted him to be in this post as Syamin Jasmi. Hence, I searched for his photo and found him cheers-ing! XD

Red John's Identity Revealed. Spoiler Included.

OH MY GOD...!!

Who thought that HE WAS RED JOHN??

Oh..okay, I am getting ahead of myself.

Who is Red John? Is he in the list of seven suspects?

the list of seven suspects

For those who havent watch the show but do want to know who he is (Well, i think that's why you're here, if you're not up to spoiler you wouldnt search "Who is Red John" in Google Search, right?) I will answer each and every question that you may have in mind.

He is Sheriff McAllister.
Shocking? Isn't he DEAD?
He was dead. Well. He faked his death, obviously. For once, he did not have the Red John's annoying voice, but in that episode, The Mentalist Season 6 Episode 8 "Red John", he did play the song. Urgh. I hate that voice. Anyway, he faked his death by having two explosions, one knocked everyone out (except for him), when he pulled a body from his car (an unknown body) and pulled Jane and two other suspects (Bertram and Reede Smith) out of the way just before the second explosion.

At the coroner's office, he asked another of the Blake Association (I assumed you already know by now, if you didnt know, well, Blake Association is an association of dirty cops. But they didnt know each other, but only will know if they're in distress by saying "Tyger, tyger". If the cop replied the same, then he's from the Blake Association) to switch the unknown DNA as his own to fake his death.

And he appeared at the episode in order to kill Jane, but one thing he didnt have a chance to tell, is how he knew about the seven suspects 2 months before Jane come out with his own.

He killed Bertram in the process, and was shot, and at last, he died as the result of Jane chocking him. Well, the ep didnt cover Jane's gruesome behaviour, anyway, it only focused on Jane, with McAllister's chocking, gurgling sound.

Jane chocking ex-Sheriff McAllister

It was disturbing, but not for me, because I knew he deserved it. (Oh dear, what happened to me???)